May 2010
1 post
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Have I become less romantic? I think I may be losing to reality… Definitely not as oblivious as I used to be. Well, this has its ups and downs. I guess I’m living my life… I think I’m more realistic about things. Silver lining’s still there. It’s just not my ultimatum. =\ TRYHARD. What am I doing? What do I even want.. this =\ =\ =\ ..to be? See, even this seems...
April 2010
5 posts
さようなら « SAYONARA »...
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DEAR BELOVED SECRET BLOG OF MINE… I borderline want to share you… but I just can’t do it… you’re too private :X Besides, who will care? Plus, certain people may make undesirable connections… OOOOH HOW THE PAST HAUNTS ME NOW! LOL! *dramatic fail pose* I made you as an outlet for myself… and I’m so glad for it. That not many people I know know of you...
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Sometimes I get really irritable. I hate it when that happens, because then I will invariably find myself on an extremely negative and emotional roller coaster. One second I’ll want hugs, the next I’ll snap at you if you interrupt my silence, then I’ll have this urge to physically destroy something, or go into solitary emo mode where all I want to do is curl up in a corner and...
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Thank you for the encouragement, Niece! <3 I believe in us :) Hehe! BTW, why don’t you take 155 with me instead of 153? They’re the same lecture, only 153 has a lab… unless that is a necessary requirement for you? @_@ If it’s just for science credit, why take up an extra 3 hours during your summer? :< *confused* On another note, I really want to drop out of...
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R . E . P . U . T . A . T . I . O . N . I had it. Do I still have it?… At least, the one I had before, I can’t defend in my current state. So this summer, I will strive to improve upon my lost talents: 1. Academic - I’m taking a class in the summer. Gonna ace it. 2. Music - Play piano. Errrday. Relearn the classics. Go beyond the boundary. And pick up that guitar. 3. Art - Take...
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Moments like this.. as heavenly melodies kiss my ears and sensual breezes caress my cheeks CLOSE YOUR EYES while the warm embrace of the springtime sun envelops you and all is perfect happiness stilled amidst the air scattering petals and LOOK UP! capture that everlasting blue sky and just peace BREATHE leave me feeling like I don’t even know HOW TO BEGIN to express how much I LOVE YOU..
March 2010
6 posts
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Long time. It’s been a long time. But no matter what… I love you long time :)
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我好開心,真非常開心!自己有這样好朋友.我很幸运. 友だちからすごくすばらしいなことをくれたんです。私はうれしいです。みんなを大好きだよ。きっと、いいなかまになったね。 J’espère que c’est ça. Bien que, trop souvent mes sentiments me disent que ma coeur n’est pas complètement honnête dans mes interactions avec des autres. Mais, vraiment, ce n’est pas vrai, n’est-ce pas? Après tous, je ne comprends pas pourquoi je ne peux pas me partager entièrement....
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桜 : さ く ら (sa-ku-ra) CHERRY BLOSSOMS My favourite flower <3 “Even when they aren’t in bloom…they’re just so special, so unique, so unpredictable. They can bloom at any moment and wither away just as quickly.” & when they do, Nothing is more B E A U T I F U L than a blooming 桜. « from BiskElle’s “Seeing Double” from ff.net »
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WELL NOW, je suis mal. : ( So I had to call in sick to work this morning. MOD wasn’t pleased. I think I may have to do it again tomorrow… I don’t want to, because (1) I do want to work, I haven’t seen everyone in over a week now, (2) we’re moving the store so it’s gonna be a rough day, and lastly (3) it’s J’s last day :’( …if they...
0302100014
This is weird. It’s not quite a tug-a-war, but I feel like I am being pulled both ways, in a way. I still want to be there for you. But most of the time, I summon a forcefield whenever you are near. It wasn’t there before. But I’m not afraid of anything. I have no feelings like that for you anymore. But I guess I could be a better friend if that’s what we are…...
February 2010
2 posts
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(Syaoran Li) “I’m so glad that I have you. I am amazed at your power to pull sense back to me, and even make me realize things that I wouldn’t have found out on my own.” (Eriol Hiiragizawa) “That’s why friends exist. They are the ones that describe the back which you cannot see.” (L) From fanfiction.net/~Majah (Incorporated 23) Forever love to my friends :) I thank you...
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« ♥ x ♠ » the turnover… the turnabout. now, by stroke of chance, or clairvoyance… what cards have you dealt me this time around? You’re the King of Hearts and I’m Queen of Spades… OPPOSITION. ATTRACTION. AM I IT OR AM I YOURS?
January 2010
34 posts
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Be who you are. Live your life with no regrets. Even though memories mean a lot…
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Seeking renewal. February is where it will all begin. I will take action. Only I can make my dreams come true… I believe in kindness and I believe in pain. Let go. Teach me how to let myself go. I’ve sunk so low. Please lift me up.. I need something new. Where are you…? Be honest with me. Don’t you dare USE me. There is a reason why there exists a division between the...
“People go into relationships because it makes them happy [to have a companion]....”
– PUTTY <3 (ME: So, think deeply, feel strongly.. if he makes me happy, hold onto that happiness, hold onto him.. and if the risk for happiness is worth the fear, “Do what makes me happy.” But it’s a step I don’t think I’m capable of taking.. I have too much doubt.)
“You can’t PLAN or PREDICT guys walking into your life. And all the...”
– ENVEH THE PSYCHO <3 (ME: oh FML why are women so weak LOL)
“In my mind… Chinese New Year is more important than Valentine’s Day....”
– CRISSYTOU SNIFFYPANTS <3 AHAHAHAAHHAA
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This year’s Valentine’s Day falls on the same date as the start of Chinese New Year! ::*+*:: F E B R U A R Y | 1 4 t h | 2 0 1 0 ::*+*:: I find that special :) I wonder if I’ll have someone special to share it with.. ^^= Haha, just kidding. Lately, my thoughts have become more rational and realistic. When I think about being in a relationship… 1....
“Some memories aren’t meant to leave traces…”
“You don’t have to change friends if you understand that friends change.”
“We live for the people we like and we die for the people we love.”
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I hate to say this but YOU’RE A THREAT. STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM HIM.
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He’s looking at me with eyes full of fear. It’s a sad case, especially when you consider that in a world where you are successful and satisfactorily happy, you’d want all to look at you in fear except for the one who has your heart…him. Don’t look at me that way…it breaks my heart.
“A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love;
A hug is just a hug...”
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How do you know when you like, love, or fall in love with a person? What does it feel like? How do you know? How can you tell, and when? Is it the same for everyone, or does it feel different for each person? I realize that the only way to know if any feeling is there is to be around that person. But, when/if it happens… is it a feeling you can ignore? I seem to be good at being...
“You only fail if you don’t try”
“You miss 100% percent of the...”
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Perhaps you’re with your lover, secret, passing away the night In each other’s arms, linked in an embrace oh-so-tight Perhaps you’re sitting alone, thinking, unable to settle your mind In midst of chaos and confusion, restless in rewind Perhaps you’re awake because of school, stress, and work as well In troubled times and runaway dimes, whose follies for you fell Perhaps...
“Love is a decision, not an emotion or feeling, that if made from the heart will...”
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One love… Let go? I can’t. …One life.
“Forgotten love can haunt your past, but forgetting to love haunts you now.”
“When you think of giving up, think of why you held on for so long…”...”
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With each passing day, my resolve crumbles… Do I have my answer, then? ——- Personally, I must resolve to balance being on msn with doing something that’s productive. Curses… it’s such a distraction. ——- CRUISE PLEASE D;
“We only hide because we want to be FOUND;
We only walk away to see who will...”
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PLAYLIST: MY CURRENT TOP 3 - Wedding Dress | Tae-Yang | Korean fandom conversion!!.. haha, beauty, I have the piano score for it <3 - Stronger | Kanye West | AE-inspired.. mood: like I can do A N Y T H I N G .
- Whatcha Say | Jason Derulo | I listened closely to the lyrics on my drive home from work.. can’t I have you back? WORK: ..was alright. I was on the sales-floor most of the time,...
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I’m utterly, wholely, completely, undeniably ridiculous =D I STAYED UP TIL 6AM…WATCHING NARUTO SHIPPUDEN YE YE (Y) Honestly, I had to catch up from episodes 128-142!!! It was good times. R.I.P. Jiraiya-sama and Uchiha Itachi : ( fucking mindblowing. Just amazing. Oh, and I texted the guy… who didn’t reply : ( I really think… I’m pushing too hard. Have...
“It’s beauty that captures your attention but personality which captures...”
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Gloucester Cafe, wow (L) a new favourite place to dine. :) Today, in PSYC I had to suffer through a near-repetition of LING 200. *HEADDESK* Then, I met up with PUTTY (L) NTS go back to OUTPOST to purchase MAGNETS! After, I went to JAPN and learned too many new forms but answered all correctly :D After that, I went to my first CRWR lecture and IT WAS FCKING A-MAZE-ZING(!!) LIEK SRSLY WTFOMGBBQ *in...
“Oh no, oh no, I refuse to let you go.”
“Those who are afraid to fall…never learn to fly.”
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ENTROPY <3 I love that word… (reminds me of CHEM12) :P - DO NOT OVERTHINK … fabricating falsities is a ‘downward spiral’ (E.R.) - In most cases, don’t do anything until you’re 100% sure it will benefit you (K.C.) - Do what makes you happy :) Life’s too short to let those moments pass you by… after all, they are just moments… - Only do it if...
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I’ve got it. A revelation. A lesson that’s so obvious and necessary I’m disappointed in myself for not realizing it sooner! It takes two. That’s the only way I’ll ever figure out whether or not I truly like him. After all, how can I know if I don’t talk to him, hang out with him, be with him? I can’t invent emotions. Then, I’d really be fooling the...
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All of a sudden, I just want to get up and shout for all the world to hear: “Nothing matters anymore!” Why are you so hard to figure out? One of my…strengths?…is admittedly my ability to creep until I find all the information I possibly can. And I mean creep… to the max but I wouldn’t call myself a stalker. I’m only curious, yet cautious :) so don’t...
“FUCK EVERYTHING- I WANT YOU (BACK) IN MY LIFE!”
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I’m afraid of you. I’m afraid to get close to you again. I’m afraid of what you think of me now. I’m afraid of what you feel for me now. If you do at all.. I’m afraid of what I feel for you. I’m afraid of the possibilities I know are before us. I’m afraid of the rejection I may be dealt if I see us through. I’m afraid of trying this time around. But...
December 2009
5 posts
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1. I push people away because I don’t know what to do otherwise. Call it a fear of the unknown - or perhaps it is self-preservation in a different form. 2. NOT LOOKING, BUT… wanting someone to share my life with. Ever get that feeling? Something happens that you find absolutely extraordinary. You must tell someone. Your friends will listen but they will not understand. They will find...
“THRILL. Where’s your sense of thrill?! looking for it. do want. need.”